"Yes , I am, look at the dictionary under Dx and it says stubborn cow" . I say
"You know it's for the best right, just get it over and done with" . Says she who's never gone through chemo but loves me anyway
"No friggin way, after the last round (my 7th cycle) there is no way I'm going to go through that again, it's my body, and it's my decision, the end" . I grit out mulishly
"Come on Dx " she says
"I don't want to talk about it, So when are you coming over to visit " I say changing the topic very very quickly
"sigh... let me check my diary, hopefully April" she says
We chit chat a bit more and I know she's not really going to let it go but as I said, I just didn't want to talk about going to do another cycle , or going through the horrible experience like the last time, the nausea, the vomiting the stomach spasms, aches, the weight loss and weakness. I was done. Did you hear me DOC, I'm done!!!
Yes I did tell the Head Nurse and Doc about my decision, Doc said "Dx, we're going to give you an extra week, you're anemic and obviously need to rest but reconsider please, the dose won't be as strong because of the weight loss and this is the final cycle, lets kick it in the arse" ( I know who I want to kick in the a@#$.. humpf)
A couple of weeks later I'm in Hospital, having my final cycle of Chemo, I told everyone I'd be partying in between the chemo drips, bring on the disco balls and the non alcoholic dwinkies, we'll boogie down till we get told off or fall in a faint on the beds.
Yeah that was all in my head, I was making like the bestest of the best patient so they'd let me out pronto. Which they did.
After that it was regular blood transfusions and blood tests to ensure I was ticking along, my final P.E.T scan was in the second week of May, and wouldn't you know it, during my transfusion, my temperature sky rocketed . Doc walked past me and said, "we're admitting you Dx, gotta find out what that infection is"... LURVERLY, I just love being in hospital.. NOT. Anyway, fast forward a week later, I'm sent home and am recuperating with bi weekly visits to the Doc until the P.E.T Scan happens.
Talk about a cliff hanger, I had the P.E.T scan (more of the "take a deep breath and hold please, now breathe normally..) but had to wait for another week before my oncologist talked to me about the results. anxiety much? Results day came pretty fast and...... I'm in REMISSION!!!! oh yes I beat the beast folks. (I would try to do a jig but the body ain't up to it YET)
What a long road it has been, but the Doc says, "Now's the rebuilding and recuperation period. You have to watch out as you're aware your immune system is still weak, you have to start an exercise regime to rebuild the muscles that have all gone, (ya do you know where my bum has gone? I seem to have lost it) you have to start eating properly to gain weight and you have to stop stressing."
"Can I travel?" I ask hopefully. He shakes his head, "because the tumour on your lung is taking it's time disintegrating, you'll have to wait till it's gone completely, it's just a dead lump (charming) right now. (He gives me the "look") We'll talk about radiology in a couple of months time. Booooo. Oh well as long as I'm healthy and there's no more chemo , everything is blue skies and sunshine.
So because I can't be in large public spaces I spend a lot of my time at Bloomhill Cancer Care. I have my Art Therapy Classes on Wednesday
as well as Group Meditation :
Meditation Room this is a link to the video (for some reason I can't upload it here)<--- br="" link="" nbsp="" to="" video="">--->
Today however I did a workshop that is provided by the LOOK GOOD FEEL BETTER program, I had been given their leaflet when I was going through Chemo at the ADEM CROSBY CENTRE but just wasn't up to it. Last week the girls at Art Therapy class egged me on so I called up and attended their workshop. Hey, I'm bald, no eyebrows and no eyelashes what have I got to lose? (Please do not ask about hair in other places like some of my friends do... :-p )
It was a two hour workshop to show us how to take care of our skin, do our make up and to try out some wigs, scarves and caps by they two lovely ladies from The Look Good Feel Better Team
|Mary is on the Right and she's the one you'll be dealing with when you book in QLD|
|All this Skin Care and Make Up once we've tried it on is for us to take home,!|
|And since we loose our hair, the wigs, scarves and caps are a welcome part of the workshop|
After the two hours, I'd learned a lot , not only about Looking Good and Feeling Better but also the women around me who were going through or had just finished Chemo just like me. Knowledge is power, the more you enquire and talk the more you find out.
So with that I've decided to start vlogging about simple recipes for our shattered taste buds, and tips from my cancer experience. I'd love to give back to society as they've loved and supported me during my protocol. I've just got to set up a crowfunding site to purchase the equipment etc. If you have any suggestions, I'm all ears... hairless ones that is . Ha Ha Ha Ha